Thursday, September 30, 2010

questioning

I wrote a quick post a little more than exactly a year ago about possibly transferring to a new school. I believe that was the last time I posted on the subject.

I highly considered transferring to another college for months. I looked online at other schools, filled out five or so applications and went to an open house.

Then, I decided to "suck it up" and stay. I deleted the apps, stopped looking at princetonreview.com and tried to find the best things about my school.

I joined a club, hung out with different people and began to expand my personal circle to beyond the room and out to the rest of the campus.

I liked school again. I was excited to go back in August--counting down the days until I could watch movies with my roommates and talk and laugh into the night.

Now, I have been wandering on to princetonreview.com as I sit there with nothing to do, figuring out how I would spend a semester elsewhere or change totally, thinking about how it would be to transfer schools as a junior--and I am not sure why.

Something in my head tells me that I like it so much here but something else is telling me I dont. I feel incredibly confused all the time.

Im not sure whether me liking school comes from the fact that I want to love it here or that I actually do. I dont hate it or dislike it, but i am not positive that I wouldnt be indifferent if it came down to it.

Tomorrow I have a meeting with an advisor about studying a semester elsewhere. Maybe it will help me figure some things out.

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