hey there.

I follow a lot of blogs but I always read them through Google reader so this morning when I went to Blogger, I was appalled to see that I last posted on October 17. I mean, I knew it had been a while but I didn't realize it was that long ago.

Anyway, a lot has gone on in the past few months. 

Remember the weight-loss boot camp I was in? Well, I completed it a few weeks ago. The week of Thanksgiving to be exact. That Sunday, I weighed in at a number 26.4 pounds less than I had seven weeks prior and bought some new pants.

Everyone keeps asking me if I feel different and I ponder that every time. Do I feel different? No, I don't. After being overweight for the majority of my life, it's going to take a lot more than 26 pounds for me to lose my inhibitions and not be self conscious. In my eyes, I don't look very different despite people telling me I do.

Every time they ask and I reply that I don't see it, I literally get tears in my eyes. I promised myself that I would never be one of those people that hates their body so much that they can only see the negative and I turned into that. It's something i'm working on because I want to be able to say, yes, I did lose 30 pounds (as of right now, that's my total), i do wear new pants and yes, I am still working but right now I look better.

After completing the program, I have a new appreciation for all the things my body can do and I want to be able to love it. I can run sprinting drills and use weights. I can do more push ups than i've ever been able to do. I've carried tires up a hill. My body takes in my food, runs my metabolism and has given me legs and arms to use among other things. 

For seven weeks, my body was pushed to the max but it never gave up and the moral of this story is that neither will I.