I could tell they were all friends from the start. They gave those looks to each other obviously sharing a silent secret about me which made me uncomfortable and my mind was already made up about whether I liked them or not (verdict: I didnt)
Our required project was to design a business. I thought and thought about something cool, something we could do as a non-profit and then, they came up with an idea.
A designated driver service.
I hated it. A service already exists: its yellow with the number painted on the side. Our school also has shuttles that cart people to and from the clubs a city over.
They thought it was the most inventive and best idea anyone had ever thought of and I silently and complacently went with it.
I wanted to drop the class but I knew in my heart I should stick it out. It had only been a couple weeks and it would probably get better, but it didnt.
They decided to put the business into effect. Every Thursday, Friday and Saturday, some of us would be on-call to answer our special purchased cell phone to pick people up and drop them off.
I should have said I didnt want to do it. I shouldnt have said I had a car. I should have said no when they asked me to use the car when I had to leave. But I didnt do any of those things and I became stuck.
When I offer to be on call, they dont need me. When I cant be there, they need me. When we need to meet, they always pick a time when I say I cant be there.
and i'm done.
Our big presentation is on Monday and after that, they can fend for themselves.
I'm withdrawing from the class so I dont have to be stressed 24/7 about the group., about the project, about what they are saying behind my back when they see me.
Im telling them that i'm not participating in the business any longer because oh yea, they want to keep it running forever.
Just talking about withdrawing makes me feel more relieved although in the back of my head I feel like im not doing the right thing either.
Decisions, decisions..why are they so hard to make?
I found you on a blogroll on blogfrog and your blog seems like one I can for sure relate too. Especially this post. I'm a college student too. I study medicine and a couple semesters ago we did a couple group case studies and I am NOT a group worker. I'm very independent and vain when it comes to my studies (I'm honest lol). Some people are very petty and won't even budge to take your opinion or outlook on anything. Most people would say stick it out, but as somebody who can definitely relate to what you are going though, I would probably withdraw as well.
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Ouch, I'm sorry. Sounds frustrating!
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